Thanks, I'd been having problems with depression lately and I felt it would be better to check myself into the  hospital rather than risk becoming a danger to myself. I'm out now  and I'm feeling pretty good. Take care.

Chad

Hello darling,
oh well i don't know what's happening
to those people, i noticed that every one is two faced
and i know what your feeling, i have alot of "friends"
like this here,but you dont need them,you have many other friends who
love you and cherish you.dont forget that,and here in MDD we make our own
small family,so if you need to talk i will always be here for you.okay? :)
iloveyou dear

Good luck!  Where is Australia are you going to live?

x

Congratulations.....Hope you have a good experience there.Which City are you  in by the way ?

I have friends in Melbourne.....Good Luck

Hello darling ,
i loved this song alot,
it made me think , and had alot
of emotions.
suku seems to be soo cute
thank you alot for your
support.i love you so much
and they mean alot to mee
have a good day dear (:

"I missed my dreams, felt a surge of pain in my chest and a little depressed, but then those were dreams and this is a reality, so I figured why get myself upset over the unreal world; afterall reality is not that bad too...."

wow, that thought was like you took the words right out of my mouth. i was thinking today that i am no where near where i dreamed i would be. i feel like i am living a stranger's life, not mine. and then i read this. interesting how we often share similar emotions....

so why are you moving? i love hearing about the areas you live. i love hearing about other places in the world; i can't wait to travel! 

Very interesting...

My name refers to a book title - a book i loved when i was about 12, about a girl who says she is God.  I'm not God, obviously, but i loved that book.

I'm a bit freaked out by what you say it means though!

I have only erad the last couple of entries in your diary - where are you going? x

A new fresh start is the best (:
goodluck in that,i'm glad that you are fine
Much lovee.

I don't use sun protection stupid me, i always forget!

Hello darling,
this was interesting.
do you have any idea
how i can remove the black
under my eyes :) i hate them :(
i hope you are fine and having
a great week do far.
Much love always <3

interesting entry hehe. i need to wear sunscreen every time i'm in the sun because i have very fair skin. odd, i dreamed last night that i was walking in the sun with a tank top on, and i had the thought in the dream that i was going to get burned because i didn't put sunscreen on.

thanks for your comment. it means a lot. i don't know what i want to say in response, but i agree with you. if we aren't right for each other, i don't have the strength to face that now, but i just feel so happy with her. at least when things are going well.

don't delete your diary...or if you do, at least save it somewhere for you because you WILL want to read it again someday.

thanks for your advice on my previous entry btw

wow, from all your entries, you sounded a lot older than 27. you must be wiser than your years. you are not too old to learn more for a new career, and you are not too old for anything, especially love. this is your prime time! i firmly believe that.

did you ever reveal your name, or is it Ms. 1610?

thanks for praying for me :)

i want to go to all those places!!!!

sry i haven't commented on your entries in a while; i haven't had much energy to write lately, but i have been signing on when i can't handle things and am trying to vent. i HAVE been reading your entries tho, just so you know..

Have a good, safe trip to Goa. Take care.

Chad

Awe dear,
i'm sorry to find out your going through all of this,
but being emotional isn't a bad thing at all,its better than
hiding your feelings or have no feelings at all.
sometimes people surprise us,i'm talking about close people
but this is life.no one is happy nowadays and it saddens me to see
my friends that i care about the most are going through bad times and not being able to help
them.
Things will be much much better sooon
i love you.

There's nothing wrong with being emotional, you just have to find a balance between the emotional and the practical. It's hard I know, I'm the same way. That's why I'm having so many problems with the situation I'm in. I want and need out but I'm trying to be delicate about it. It's not working. Maybe I'll find out she won't care that much. She almost broke it off last night. I was holding my breath but it didn't happen. Good luck.

Chad

long time no talk...

i loved the fact that you posted that song on here! i love world music, and i love music from india. i don't understand it, but my girlfriend can so i will just ask her next time i see her.

about your last comment of living in the past or future. i've been studying buddhism, and that is the main goal: to teach how to live in the present and enjoy the now. often times you miss experiences you are having because the whole time you are thinking about what's coming next or reliving past events. anticipating the future often sets you up for a let-down because it never goes exactly how you imagine it. basically, you get your hopes up and miss something that could be enjoyed. try to stop thinking all the time and just live. tell your brain to stop every time you notice your mind wandering off to something other than what you are currently doing.

Hello darling,
ahh this is so sweeet
i love babies alot specially
girls are cuter,where are you now?
which new country ?
well goodluck dear,
and for the pictures well,i can copy and picture
from google,xanga,and facebook and paste it here
just copy / paste,
but songs from youtube well
choose the video,
on the right side of it,there is embed code,
copy it and then press here the <> key paste the embed code
then close the <>

<>=you can fnd it above the sign.
if it didnt work tell me i will explain more.

much love my dear.

I am also scard of lightning and thunder!!  I am always scared it will strike me, or the house and someone once told me a horror story about someone who was struck while standing next to a mirror because the lightning struck the mirror and it reflected onto her!  I actually used to run around in a storm frantically covering all our mirrors with towels! So your are so not a chicken!

I've had a few mobiles stolen as well.  One off my desk at work.  One at the security checkpoint (no, I am not kidding) at Court.  They are so easy to lose, and I would lose my head if it wasn't fixed on good and proper!   

families always have lots of issues. i hope things work out for you though. have a good day :)

i've missed reading your entries and leaving you comments. glad to be back online :)

i'm sorry you're feeling sad. i have been feeling that way too. lots of negative thoughts and feelings have been with me these past couple weeks.seems like we often have similar moods.

Lovely poem,i loved it .
how are you dear ?
its been so long!
are you moving to australis :D
im going there next summer
my aunt lives there..

i really liked the poem so much

Your friends are not friends any longer
And family is a stranger
At a time like this; you see
Strangers behaving like family

i miss you dear..
Love always..

Thank you for your comment!

I also cannot foresee myself having children.  But I am not good with kids AT all!  LOL. 
Handwriting analysis sounds so interesting.  What I'd like to do at some point is to do a course that will teach me when someone has forged someone elses handwriting.  I'm not sure there are such courses, but I'd love to do that!

oh this is sad !!
yeah god bless him,
how are you dear,its been a long time,ad i missed you terribly,
i wanted to thankyou about yoyr comment the one it posted 3 times by mistaken it made me almost cry,
thanks my friend.

Hope you will have a great day.
Much love

I hope your cat feels better. Take care.

Chad

Thanks for your comment. I hope you enjoy your vacation wherever you go. There's no need to be in a hurry to get married despite what family or friends want. Live life and enjoy it. Take care.

Chad

being single isn't wrong at all.
this relly got into me,
im the only girl left in my family who didnt get engaged or married.
theres still girls but under 15 =
so my parents and the whole family including some old non relative people
are talking about why no one wants me or proposed yet, and how im old for the single part.

blah bla,i care less.i just hate them when they talk about my private own life :S
i hope you choose the perfect place for the vacation , and enjoy it,im at work now and should go before my boss notice lol

btw i miss you so much,takecare 

RYN: I have a brother four years older. My two sisters are four and six years younger than me. So as you can imagine, the years are spaced apart a lot. I think this is why we can't all agree on one thing... lol.

LOL! I love how you refer to marriage as baggage. You don't find life with one person at all desired? What about a family? Or is that too early a train of thought for you? I think when we're pressured to do it, we stray from it. However, when we are open minded about it and allow it to come as it pleases, then it should be embraced.
You have great hopes you should accomplish before then. I think in earning a sense of independence, that'll really make you overall happy. Everything is one step at a time, right?
Good luck with everything!
Rana.
=)

Hi dear,
my handwritting is eh.. bad,but yeah im like this,i really always try my best to not hurt anyone while writting or sharring information.
i can send you a copy :) haha ill try to scan something really soon.

Much love.

my dear friend,
im sorry im late in my comment i wasnt at home,and internet was so bad in the mountains!
you were always in thoughts and prayers,hope your doing fine!

i'll pray for your dad,oh sweetie all of the dadies act the same,im not sure why ther ignore them selves in this way.and yeah my parents specially my mom always makes me angry but i also try to control my temper and be nice to her no matter how angry she makes me!
your in the right direction.
and my dear your so wise i always learn from your entries, remmeber this alee man i mentioned before!
he is the sweetest ever he loves me and always trying to be nice with me,but i cant feel him in a romantic way!and didnt know how to tell him .i sure dont want him to get hurt :S

Much love to you my friend.
kisses

By the way, what language was that?

Chad

I hope your Dad gets better and does accept some medical help. Good luck with your guy problems if they can be called that. I'm glad the baby is getting better. Take care.

Chad

i have a few things to say, which i am sure people have already told you, and regardless, i doubt you will think of my words as wise seeing as i am younger than you, but i am going to tell you anyway.

people in society seem to put so much pressure on finding that one person to spend the rest of your life with. different cultures have different reasons, but all throughout history the reason has been for economic convenience. women used to have to rely on men for a place to live etc. because they couldn't work. but now, we can. it was only at this time that western societies stressed relationships for love. we are programmed to think that love finds everyone, but in reality, we don't need another person to complete us. we should be perfectly happy on our own. there is no requirement to have a partner. if you look for love, it seems to evade you. however, it seems that love finds those when they least expect it or have given up. i would say that you should focus on what makes YOU happy. don't worry about what your family or anyone else thinks. discover who you really are. if you find someone along the way, then that's great, but if not, that's perfectly fine too. i truly believe that if you desire life-long companionship, it will come to you. keep up the faith, and remember that happiness comes from within :)

Oh my dear,you didn't waste your life
you just maybe made soem mistakes ,tried things and maybe didnt work
for you but you learned from it eventually.we all learn from our past nothing is wasted.

&dont blame your self if you had failed inlove,you are still young,you have a long life ahead of you
and im sure you will make things better!and you will find your true love as i will find mine too.

Besides no one has seen the future, so you never know whats written next for me.

absolutly true we all should beleive in that! & only God knows.so as you said dont give up and try to learn from all the mistakes.im with you we should respect our parents for they know whats best for us
but also its your life and you have the right to choose the way you wanna live it .so try not to make them sad,and do what you think is best for you.

&remember GOD will always be with you to help you in every step you take!
May God bless you my friend!

Good luck with whatever you decide to do. Take care.

Chad

i'm glad you realized that he wasn't ready before you put too much into meeting him. i'm sure one day you'll find a spouse with the right timing.

i'm moving to canada permanently...at least that's the plan. who knows with me, right?

I'm glad you felt better by the end of your entry, sometimes we just need to get it out to feel better. Take care.

Chad

I love how you did the mood alerts LOL.Thank-you for your comments.It touches my heart that my writtings touch you. Blessings always,
Elizabeth

Thanks for your comment. Good luck with all that you do in the future. A new guy with a marriage proposal? I'm glad Ritz is doing better and the babies are fine. Talk to you soon.

Chad

I'm glad the babies are alright :)

definitely let us know how this formal-marriage-proposal-date goes.  i'm very interested.

Hello love,ya i replied to your PM  :) that was so sweet of you.
oh honey im sorry for this,men are unbelievable :S
i wish we could live in a world with no men
haha imagine how we will b living in peace.
dont feel sad,he is the biggest looser.

im at work now, so i have to close before anyone catch me.
im going to the mountans for the weekend for my mom is up there since last week .

Have  an amazing great weekend!!Try to enjoy it and always be happy.
your in my thoughts and prayers my friend.
Takecare.

thanks for your comment :)

you're right about karrie and melissa. honestly, i've avoided melissa altogether, but karrie is another story. she has already broken my heart severely once and little bits over and over again. i know it's bad for me, and yet i can't stay away. i have spent many therapy sessions over this topic. anyway, i decided after writing that entry that i'm not going to cheat on jess. it's not worth it in any way shape or form. i just have to keep reminding myself of my long-term goals. i should seek happiness, not momentary passion.

I know what you mean about God. him/her/them and I go back and forth all the time.

Thanks for your comment. I don't think you're materialistic or too harsh. Take care.

Chad

Hi,
 Your thoughts on love were interesting. Thanks for sharing them. As for the side note, I couldn't help laughing when I read it. But you're right, maybe we'll open up in time. But hey, your entries aren't all just personal, you do write your inferences and thoughts about them. You give your life some thought and learn lessons from it. That's more or less what I do...except that I ONLY write about the thoughts and lessons...haha.
 I'm not much of a believer and so I don't pray, but I do hope with all my heart that the babies will be alright.
 Love,
 Maya

Thanks for your comment. I will keep your little ones in my prayers. I'm sorry I didn't comment more, I've only got 30 minutes on here, it's nbot my computer. Take care.

Chad

i'm really glad you posted those lyrics; they are beautiful :)

one positive of the twins is that they're one of each gender. female twins are a pain. believe me. i have twin sisters, and it was the hardest to get along with them growing up. they gave my parents hell and still do. i'll keep my prayers with the babies :)

Good luck with the Aussie guy. Thanks for your comment.

Chad

thanks for your entry...

you may use my poems...(not that i can stop you anyway) and yes i tend to write melancholy poems... becoz i can only write what i feel... i cant make words rhyme just like that...

i do believe in astrology... and i know you dont mean to debase all scorpions in one onslaught... but everyone has the right to express themselves rite...

anyways, take care,

Steve "Sans Soul" Blade.

[steveblade]

What are you going to do when you leave your organization? Good way to handle that guy. Take care.

Chad

May God bless you & your family,and keep you all together in goodhealth!
i missed you so much,
i wanted to thankyou for all your support,your always making me feel better!
i wish i can do anything to thankyou my friend,

families are weird, i know what you mean. and i can definitely relate to the mood swings as i have them often.

there was a misunderstanding at my job that had to do with rumors etc. people just not using common sense. anyway, i'm back at work; just trying to get back to fulltime again.

I know what you mean about the family dynamics. It always seems like w